2010-- What a year.
Soon we will be kicking it's butt out the door and welcoming 2011.
(I gotta get up in my head for a bit, but there will be a reward at the end so hang in there)
Some of you know that I struggle on and off with The Monster (which is what I call the depression and anxiety that sometimes comes to visit me). One way that I work on re-directing my focus is to write this blog-- so thank you for participating in my therapy!
Christmas morning was foggy. I mean Otherworldly, Pea Soupy, Where has the World Gone Foggy. Creepy. Quiet. I could see about 50 feet around me and the rest of the world was gone.
This is a great metaphor for my life. Stay with me here.
I am glad that a year ago I could not see everything that was going to happen in 2010. I would have been overwhelmed with the thought of all the time sitting at my mom's bedside in hospitals and nursing homes. I would have been so afraid of my sister's second seizure and the aftermath of that. I would have freaked out knowing how unstable and insecure my job was going to be. I would not have experienced the joy of how well my student children are doing in school or that my family is still all here. I would have missed being surprised by all the cool things that have happened this year.
The Bible, which is pretty much my guidebook on every subject and every circumstance-- has a lot to say about how to handle life's situations. It has a lot to do with trust. And trust, in the end, is a choice. You either trust or you do not--- you really can't just 'kinda' trust or 'mostly' trust. I have struggled with this a lot. Even with trusting God-- which should be a no-brainer cuz He is really quite a lot smarter than I am you know. I like to think I know everything-- but we all know that is pretty silly. For me to trust God with my life-- and reap all the benefits of doing so- means I will only see what is just a few feet ahead of me and trust that He knows all the stuff in the fog and can handle things. Matthew 6:34 says "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own" Ain't that the truth? Dealing with my own fear of my own life works best when I focus on what 'is' what is real and not on the endless, infinite things that might happen. All the 'what ifs'.
We have all had plenty of crap in our lives this year. Hurts, pain, people and furry friends who has passed away, jobs lost, relationships strained, car accidents, hospital stays on and on and on... And lots of good stuff too!
So let's put some good thoughts out there to share with each other!
What are your thoughts, dreams, wishes, hopes and prayers for 2011?
I don't know how many of you are out there or who you are, but please take a minute to post something. Let's make a little community expression of hope. Leave your name and maybe where you live too. And I offer this little bribe: I will be drawing the names of five of you to send a $10.00 Starbucks Gift Card!!! Who can turn this down???
I can't wait to hear from you!!
Loves to All Of You!