I hadn't planned on breaking the news like this or even really mentioning it, but my office mate Claudia told me that if I am going to post the good stuff I have to post the low stuff too.
You guys don't really want to know the unfunny side of me, do you?
So yesterday I realized I was overwhelmed and one of the big things I could let go of was my online English class. Since it was an 18 week class compressed into 8 weeks it was twice the work and the online format was difficult to navigate. Also the reading was dark and depressing and there was a lot of group work which is hard to manage online. Today was the last day to drop and not have it show up on my transcript, so I decided to pull the plug.
Then I spent the rest of the day beating myself up for being a loser and being irritated with myself. Some of you know I have been battling The Monster and I am pretty tired.
And still I am blessed with things I know. I know that my family and friends love me even when I am not perfect (and even when I have to ask them just to be completely sure). I know that God has a plan for my life and though I often wonder what He is doing I trust Him and know that I am his cherished child and He has covered me with His wings and snuggled me in close.
So I guess I can re-take that class another time (for the full semester and forget online!) and the world will keep turning. And I can be grateful for all the things in my life that are good and right and there are many! And I can love on those around me and let them love on me too.
And that is pretty okay after all, isn't it?